Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas of kindness

at Hanna's place, 27.12.2010

My first Christmas in Finland has been amazingly warm :) and some things should be jotted down..

*Before 23.12: Received postcards from Anne’s family and my former classmate Hanna, also a to-my-liking gift from Anne.

*23.12: The first day completely off from school and work. I came to my teacher Piotr’s place to keep an eye on his five-year-old daughter when he was in hospital with his wife who was expecting to give birth. It was because their baby-sitter was unexpectedly unavailable for work on that day, and their nearest relative lived still too far away from Jyväskylä. I spent an evening having bread + tea and watching some cartoons with his daughter Nea (due to her family background, she at a same time spoke Polish + Finnish + English which did confuse me!).

Thank Life, the delivery went so well and we now welcome a new person to this worth-living world. :)

*24.12: Christmas Eve was spent at my VNese friends’ place with yummy food (some VNese stuff like “bún chả”, “bắp xào”, “bánh phồng tôm” and cheese pizza, Xmas cookie); plus lovely music and multi-genre movies. Couldn’t help but seeing the need to learn from my friends about cooking, decoration and kindness. Besides, at some certain times of the evening I damned myself silently for not knowing how to behave properly.

It is always like that; there are always new things I should know, think about, and practice them in a better way. However, as long as learning possibilities are still here and there, Life is good.

* 25.12: I had Christmas lunch with Anais’ big family in France last year; and today when being with Hardy family, I got chance to enjoy the atmosphere of an English-Finnish Christmas meal. Jersey kindly picked me up from my friends’ place and after the meal back to my apartment. Jersey is one of a few people who give me the feeling of trust at the very first moment they talk to me. We had only one course together, and rarely see each other at school; so I feel lucky to keep in touch with her.

*26 + 27.12: Going to visit my flatmate Hanna’s family. It must be a warm stay with another Finnish family.

[updated] First day warmer than previous -25 Celsius days. It was a meaningful trip for me. Hanna's family being really kind. Their cozy house. Christmas meals. Funny talks. First skating experience with everyone helping this pathetic me (huhu). Playing games next to an old fireplace. And all other traditional Finnish things. When i went to bed in the room of Hanna's childhood, it suddenly came to my mind that all i want for my life is something like that moment, when i could stay warm in a happy house when it was too dark and windy outside.

*28: May go to work again if Piotr's family situation is somehow settled down. Feels thankful to him, my supervisor, for always being enthusiastic enough to be in office with our group for entire days (8-22) even during the vacation, without any more wages.

Again, I’ve got to learn a lot from my teachers and mates, in this case it is the passion for studying/ working.

[updated] oooopps no work tomorrow, gonna read instead.

Well now time to get something out of my book and go to bed……… :D

Sunday, December 19, 2010

current thoughts

Audrey Hepburn as Holly Golightly in Breakfast at Tiffany's (1961)

"Being powerful is like being a lady. If you have to tell people you are, you aren't"
(Margaret Thatcher).

And I've got to think about feminism, economic richness and inner strength these days.


Monday, December 6, 2010


Cho ngày,

*Rất nhớ bố mẹ. Lẩm nhẩm câu nói cũ về lòng bàn tay, mà sao.. vẫn thèm lắm được nhìn thấy, được ôm lấy bố mẹ. Mong bố mẹ của con ở nhà mạnh khỏe, yên an. Con nhớ ngôi nhà có cánh cổng màu xanh lá của mình, nhớ lắm.

*Hôm qua kiếm được bản dịch thơ Rainer Maria Rilke của Cliff Crego, dễ hiểu hơn cuốn sách mượn ở thư viện yliopisto. Thơ RMR cứ như viết cho góc nhỏ của mình vậy. Cái góc không ai đi vào và làm ồn được cả. Khi mà vật đổi sao dời, mình nghĩ, chỉ cần cái góc đó vẫn an nhiên tĩnh lặng thì không có gì phải sợ cả. Giống như tự do ở tâm hồn mỗi người. Mình sống thoải mái hay không là ở phần tự do ấy thôi.

*Nói chuyện với Gu lúc chiều, cũng buồn buồn tại không giúp gì được cho bạn. Mình đoán là ở trong hoàn cảnh như vậy thì khó chịu và bức bối thế nào đó, tại vì bản thân không hiểu sao lại vậy. Không đủ trải nghiệm để nói được điều gì có ý nghĩa với bạn cả, cứ thấy vô duyên sao đó. Cuối cùng cũng chỉ nói được với bạn một điều cũ thiệt cũ là cứ giữ niềm tin. Tại tụi mình còn nhỏ, tại còn nhiều điều để hi vọng, kiểu vậy.


Saturday, December 4, 2010

John William Waterhouse

The Shrine (1895)

Today when looking for some visual illustration of Shakespeare’s works, I came across John William Waterhourse’s paintings. I don’t know anything about painting, but his art just simply took my breath away.. Felt like all innermost emotions of my life were there in his works. Like my youth were there..

Monday, November 29, 2010

blowin' in the wind

Blowin' In The Wind - Bob Dylan (1963)

How many roads must a man walk down
Before they call him a man?
How many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
How many times must the cannonballs fly
Before they are forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowing in the wind
The answer is blowing in the wind.

How many years must a mountain exist
Before it is washed to the sea?
How many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
How many times can a man turn his head
And pretend that he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowing in the wind
The answer is blowing in the wind.

How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
How many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
How many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowing in the wind
The answer is blowing in the wind.

Saturday, November 27, 2010


U oa nhớ nhà. :'(

Sunday, November 21, 2010


anh kk: anh cũng ko biết khuyên em thế nào hết
anh kk: vì cái này ... ko khuyên được
anh kk: có những hố sâu mà khi đâm đầu vào, dù là trong vô thức
anh kk: mình chứ ko phải ai khác, là người phải mò mẫm bò cho ra cái hố đó

Sunday, November 14, 2010



~ Psychoanalysis of the video “Corporate Cannibal” by Grace Jones. Challenging but worth doing. Learnt lots about Psychoanalysis, music reviewing and the globalized capitalism (how macroooooooo!)

~ Visited Anne. Walked carefully because of smelting snow. Had cookies and tea. Talked lots with Anne. Wish to be with Anne for a long long longer future.

~ Smelt like fresh blossoms in the afternoon. Like a bouquet of roses in the evening. I just love my scents. :) And love to be a girl.

~ Or half girl half moon.. *confused*

~ Missing some friends back home as well. Huhu. =[

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


Quick note for today,

*The first time I stayed at school until that late in the evening. When I walked to the entrance door, lots of lights were already turned off. Standing and staring at sequential lines of tables and chairs placed orderly in such a huge space of the school restaurant, I heard the silence. Hard to describe the feeling, just like I was all alone and felt good with the quietness. Hiljaisuus. Like the world were still.
And I realized I’ll miss this place tons when leaving Finland. Well I’m often annoyed with too generic sayings, but yeah.. I’m gonna miss this place.

*Michael sent us a late e-mail saying he knew all of us were too tired today with the case study, but he tried to share with us some more useful information. I just don’t know how to thank my group mates for their attitudes, all three of theirs. It is not that easy to have such responsible people in one’s group; and teamwork can probably drive one crazy with attitude clashes. I feel grateful that all of us always try the best to work for the group, and offer sympathy to each other's disastrously overlapping study timetable. At the end of a tiring day, it is so good to know that you still have someone else to learn new things together.

*Tried not to cry in the class when coming across a news about four Vietnamese kids escaped from their kindergarten (don’t know the exact English word for that kind of place) because they were beaten terribly by their teachers. Dear Buddha, how could it be possible? People must go insane on their mind..! How could they..?

*“If a girl could be two places at one time, I’d be with you”.

Monday, November 1, 2010


Neophyte at all things in life. :|

Friday, October 29, 2010


*Pretty warm today, ~8 degree accompanied with the absence of winds. A clothing incident occurred to me on the way riding to another campus for my Finnish class, so that warmth plus my dear jacket did save me from a deadly freezing embarrassment. Lucky me. :”)

*My internship at the R&D Department of my university has been claimed by one instructor since this afternoon. Such a good opportunity for me..! Not until this afternoon did I know how my plan for the next summer should be, whether I need to stay in Finland or go to somewhere else for training or come back to Vietnam. Now clear that I am gonna finish all studies and training during this academic year and then spend my summer happily in Saigon before going exchange next year. :) However, the idea of leaving Finland soon is sort of sad as well. Finland has gone to my heart in its own way.

Well.. what are ours will come back to us at the end of the journey, so let it be.

*I promise myself to always keep my daily life in a good balance.

Right here exists only my breath.

Nothing is above my breath.

*I practice to be more critical in studying, and less judgmental in personal relationships. “People are basically good”, as written in a common e-mail from eBay some weeks ago..

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


Tóm tắt của ngày =D :

Ở một mình: Đã quen với việc ở nhà một mình rồi, *icon mặt cười*. Tiina và Hanna không ở đây suốt tuần nghỉ; ngày đầu tiên có một mình trong nhà cũng sợ sợ, nhưng bây giờ đã quen rồi, thấy dễ chịu nữa. Cứ tưởng tượng cả căn hộ này là của riêng mình, hehe.

Thời tiết: Hôm nay gần 10 độ, trời âm u, *mình thích mình thích*. Bên này nhiệt độ chừng 10-20 độ và trời mát mát nhiều mây là tuyệt nhất với mình. Lúc nào đang ở trong nhà mà ngoài trời có mưa nhỏ hoặc tuyết rơi cũng hay nữa.

Về thay đổi: Hôm nay nói chuyện với mẹ lâu lâu. Năm nay không nói chuyện trên mạng mỗi ngày với bố mẹ nữa, chỉ gọi đt hoặc text ngắn hàng ngày, chắc tại ít chuyện để kể bố mẹ nghe như lúc mới qua rồi, và đã quen hơn với nỗi nhớ nhà. Bây giờ có nhớ nhà cũng không gọi về khóc với bố mẹ nữa, cứ nhắm mắt ngủ, không thì khóc một chút rồi ngủ, chứ không gọi về để mẹ khóc theo nữa. Không để làm gì hết.

Làm bánh: Lúc chiều nướng bánh mì red berry (tên tiếng Việt của trái red berry kiếm hoài không ra). Bánh ăn được, nhưng mặt bánh có vết nứt, hình như tại đánh trứng (+ bơ + bột + etc) quá tay. Thiệt ra cũng không mê ăn bánh lắm, nhưng cái cảm giác lúc trộn trộn làm làm với lúc ngửi thấy mùi bánh chín từ từ trong lò thì dễ chịu lắm. Nếu mà bánh ngon thì mang qua cho bạn ăn, lâu lâu được khen đảm đang cũng vui, é hé hé.

Mùi hương: Trưa nay nhận giấy báo bưu điện lên nhận lọ nước hoa mới, u oa..! Đây là mùi hương thứ 5 của mình. Nhớ là sẽ viết nhiều hơn về những mùi hương mình có. Tại vì mình rất thích, rất thích nước hoa. *một ngàn icon mặt cười*