Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas of kindness

at Hanna's place, 27.12.2010

My first Christmas in Finland has been amazingly warm :) and some things should be jotted down..

*Before 23.12: Received postcards from Anne’s family and my former classmate Hanna, also a to-my-liking gift from Anne.

*23.12: The first day completely off from school and work. I came to my teacher Piotr’s place to keep an eye on his five-year-old daughter when he was in hospital with his wife who was expecting to give birth. It was because their baby-sitter was unexpectedly unavailable for work on that day, and their nearest relative lived still too far away from Jyväskylä. I spent an evening having bread + tea and watching some cartoons with his daughter Nea (due to her family background, she at a same time spoke Polish + Finnish + English which did confuse me!).

Thank Life, the delivery went so well and we now welcome a new person to this worth-living world. :)

*24.12: Christmas Eve was spent at my VNese friends’ place with yummy food (some VNese stuff like “bún chả”, “bắp xào”, “bánh phồng tôm” and cheese pizza, Xmas cookie); plus lovely music and multi-genre movies. Couldn’t help but seeing the need to learn from my friends about cooking, decoration and kindness. Besides, at some certain times of the evening I damned myself silently for not knowing how to behave properly.

It is always like that; there are always new things I should know, think about, and practice them in a better way. However, as long as learning possibilities are still here and there, Life is good.

* 25.12: I had Christmas lunch with Anais’ big family in France last year; and today when being with Hardy family, I got chance to enjoy the atmosphere of an English-Finnish Christmas meal. Jersey kindly picked me up from my friends’ place and after the meal back to my apartment. Jersey is one of a few people who give me the feeling of trust at the very first moment they talk to me. We had only one course together, and rarely see each other at school; so I feel lucky to keep in touch with her.

*26 + 27.12: Going to visit my flatmate Hanna’s family. It must be a warm stay with another Finnish family.

[updated] First day warmer than previous -25 Celsius days. It was a meaningful trip for me. Hanna's family being really kind. Their cozy house. Christmas meals. Funny talks. First skating experience with everyone helping this pathetic me (huhu). Playing games next to an old fireplace. And all other traditional Finnish things. When i went to bed in the room of Hanna's childhood, it suddenly came to my mind that all i want for my life is something like that moment, when i could stay warm in a happy house when it was too dark and windy outside.

*28: May go to work again if Piotr's family situation is somehow settled down. Feels thankful to him, my supervisor, for always being enthusiastic enough to be in office with our group for entire days (8-22) even during the vacation, without any more wages.

Again, I’ve got to learn a lot from my teachers and mates, in this case it is the passion for studying/ working.

[updated] oooopps no work tomorrow, gonna read instead.

Well now time to get something out of my book and go to bed……… :D

Sunday, December 19, 2010

current thoughts

Audrey Hepburn as Holly Golightly in Breakfast at Tiffany's (1961)

"Being powerful is like being a lady. If you have to tell people you are, you aren't"
(Margaret Thatcher).

And I've got to think about feminism, economic richness and inner strength these days.


Monday, December 6, 2010


Cho ngày,

*Rất nhớ bố mẹ. Lẩm nhẩm câu nói cũ về lòng bàn tay, mà sao.. vẫn thèm lắm được nhìn thấy, được ôm lấy bố mẹ. Mong bố mẹ của con ở nhà mạnh khỏe, yên an. Con nhớ ngôi nhà có cánh cổng màu xanh lá của mình, nhớ lắm.

*Hôm qua kiếm được bản dịch thơ Rainer Maria Rilke của Cliff Crego, dễ hiểu hơn cuốn sách mượn ở thư viện yliopisto. Thơ RMR cứ như viết cho góc nhỏ của mình vậy. Cái góc không ai đi vào và làm ồn được cả. Khi mà vật đổi sao dời, mình nghĩ, chỉ cần cái góc đó vẫn an nhiên tĩnh lặng thì không có gì phải sợ cả. Giống như tự do ở tâm hồn mỗi người. Mình sống thoải mái hay không là ở phần tự do ấy thôi.

*Nói chuyện với Gu lúc chiều, cũng buồn buồn tại không giúp gì được cho bạn. Mình đoán là ở trong hoàn cảnh như vậy thì khó chịu và bức bối thế nào đó, tại vì bản thân không hiểu sao lại vậy. Không đủ trải nghiệm để nói được điều gì có ý nghĩa với bạn cả, cứ thấy vô duyên sao đó. Cuối cùng cũng chỉ nói được với bạn một điều cũ thiệt cũ là cứ giữ niềm tin. Tại tụi mình còn nhỏ, tại còn nhiều điều để hi vọng, kiểu vậy.


Saturday, December 4, 2010

John William Waterhouse

The Shrine (1895)

Today when looking for some visual illustration of Shakespeare’s works, I came across John William Waterhourse’s paintings. I don’t know anything about painting, but his art just simply took my breath away.. Felt like all innermost emotions of my life were there in his works. Like my youth were there..